Double Entendre

Hard hits the sun on my stages of maturation
And solemn is my soul upon first hearing the news
Does this signal the moon to shine on my copulation
Since my copulation has forced me to lose . . .

Out on my place, in this never-ending race
To see who can extinguish my fire
For the night, I cannot taste, the fruits of my chase
The various women that I do desire . . .

Is this history coming after me? I've treated them so tragically
And Karma has just fronted me the bill
But like Pandora, I'm not paying . . . from this path, I'm not straying
But for this, I may need to take a Paxil.

Am I ready for a responsibility, which could lead to liability
If I'm unable to play the part?
It doesn't matter what I think it should be, when God knows what's best for me
And only mandates that I use my heart

("Use my heart?")

For years, I've searched for that true love
The kind that makes me selfless . . .
That reduces my selfish, while increasing my help with
Attaining earthly Agape love from above

From your smiles, I glow . . . your cries, I woe
Never thought that this day would come
Thought my happiness was done when I heard the news
But it's just reincarnated as my son . . .

On the Steps

Woman, stand to embrace yourself
For no other person shall you wait
For wise you are, power you hold
And no other person from you shall take

Take this pain, take this shame
No longer shall you be bound
By haunted lies which brings demise
Professing your mind unsound

You have a smile that warms, eyes that comfort
Hands that enchantedly caress
Lips that soothe, with words that move
But your brain trumps the rest.

No fear to show, no tears from woe
For those days are far behind
As this carpet awaits your beauty's debut
Here and now is your time to shine.

The Corner

He's scared of that light
Burning so effervescently
For it invokes flight

Bringing his darkness to sight
He hides that jealousy
He's scared of that light

It illuminates his delights
Something he aspires to be
For it invokes flight

He's not ready to face his plight
For success, he cannot see
He's scared of that light

Its perfections causes a fright
So, he resists adamantly
For it invokes flight

Its standards are wrapped o, so tight
But if vigilant, its faults (he) sees
He's scared of that light
For it invokes flight

Centric

Extending hands to cold shoulders
Gives my fingertips a chill
Wondering why this could be
The manifestation of ill-will
Ill-will? Could it be?
Or a stroke of jealousy?
Not understanding what is the cool
Inherent inside of me
The cool, the suave
The natural ability
To create a ring of circles
That easily surrounds me
That fence guarding your heart
Is an awful sight to view
How do you stall before you start
While allowing anger to accrue?
Humble beginnings---I'm no better than you
Both working on that list named, "To-Do"
We all have faults, this much is true
But in friendship which comes, the effort is times two

Breathe's Breath

We as a society cannot cope
with the fact that living
Stereotypes are no joke
We perpetuate them daily
with a narrow scope
Eyes blinded but minds'
addicted like chasing dope
To the feens with pipe dreams
Hanging off necks like yokes
can we overcome a convoluted society
without craving ropes?
We dance for change
Sing from pain
Rap to entertain through show
(OR DO WE)
dance for change
sing for pay
rapping a minstrel show?
Ingenuity is key
to recovery
on this slippery slope
To gain traction
from satisfaction
reversing the self-hate woes
-Just broaden the scope-

After the Party

Complexity has no destiny
as its ill-will
sleeps next to me
Best for me? Please rest in peace
For no longer shall your stronghold
fear the death in me
Physically rather mentally
it's being made harder
than it has to be
Affecting me for I cannot see
I'm blinded by the shadows
of simple falsities
Not implicitly but explicitly
no one can define
who I am to be
So this misery is yet history
I'm taking complete control
now, leave me be...

Tails (Got 'Til It's Gone Remake) Pt. 2

(Mistakes.....)
If forgiveness is for the wise
Then Father let me be dumb
For once in my life
Let me play the bad one:

"Wicked and vicious,
I sicken
At the thought of someone
Openly self-convicted
At the hands of their own
Testimony
Shaking my head
These people are fakes and phonies
Same wack movements and lame excuses
Your presence to me
Is seemingly useless
WATCH OUT NOW!!!
Don't let me catch you snorin'
Cause 7 days later
Your family's tears will be pourin'
Drippin', slowly runnin' down the cheeks
Oh, "Internet thuggin'" cause you thought I was weak
Destroy the gate, shatter the windows, taking my time though
Hand you the package, now your block is Dante's Inferno



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Heads (Got 'Til It's Gone Remake) Pt. 1.

Today, I'm here
But tomorrow, where will I be
And with who?
To that, I have no clue
So confused...
Fixated on past fantasies
Of childhood
Which breeds present troubles
And conflicting attitudes
On aspects of life
Currently in
Pursuit
I can't tame these demons
Inside me...or is it you?
Baiting me to unleash
My anger
And rage
See, friends don't let friends make foolish
Mistakes...



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Wishing on a Star (Remake)

I'm wishing that you are....
Someone that you aren't....
I wish that it could be....
More than just a dream....
Time and time again....
You've proven to be just a friend....
Oh, how I wish to see....
Us being together happily....
But now, I'm reduced to tears....
Because of wasted years....
Chasing after you from the start...
For you to only break my heart....

(And I wishing on the rainbows,
That I see...
That you could be just lying here,
Next to me....
I don't need any fancy clothes
Or cars....
I just want to spend nights with you,
Under stars....)



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Back Down Memory Lane (Remake)

I've made mistakes in the past
Don't know how I eluded His wrath
But it helped to shape my path
("Success" is the name I proclaim)

Future happiness is what drives me
Current troubles try to gyve me
But my faith allows me to break free
("Success" is the name I proclaim)

I'm establishing a nation
Based off Bob's education
And Michael's dedication
("Success" is the name I proclaim)

I know what I was born to do
And how I'm going to keep it true
But how will YOUR legacy define you?
("Success" is the name I proclaim)

The Inspiration of R.A.

When I go...I'm gone
Never to return
Looking far over the horizon
Why would I ever want to turn...

Back...again?
Though the friendships that were won
Would make me stop to wonder
Am I leaving matters undone?

Perhaps...maybe?
But I shall never know
My bags are already loaded
As I'm preparing myself to go

Oh why...the rain
Is coming down so hard
Is this a woeful omen
Or is this city now scarred

I love...you all
But it's time for a change
As I gave you all I got
I've slowly become deranged

The final..farewell
Meditation ascertained
Space is needed to gain knowledge
Unadulterated and unconstrained...

Mary

He's dying
He's dying
And I can't stop from crying
And I thought I'd feel some joy
But to myself, I'm lying
He's dying
He's dying
And I can't stop from crying
He's caused me hurt and pain
But my heart is somberly sighing!

Have Mercy!
Have Mercy!
For he no longer hurts me
He's sorry for his sins
And to death, he's no longer worthy
Have Mercy!
Have Mercy!
Grant him more time to show thee
That he's learned from his mistakes
And from Earth, too soon for his leave

It's too late!
It's too late!
He's lifeless on this very date
And though I tried to pray
God already determined his fate
It's too late!
It's too late!
While he's standing outside the gate
He asks to come in
But eternal burning is his mandate!

Timing Mirror's Refrain

Preseverance has a new name
And it sings as bells and chimes
For 24 years, her legacy created
Still withstanding the tests of time

This name of Preseverance
Has been known for five years
The battles have been mighty
And the triumphs brought only tears

Now, the moniker shines brightly
Through the crevices of despair
No longer shackled by those
Who've done everything but care

So herein lies Jaime
On Preseverance's name signs
Twenty-four years in the making
And still withstanding the tests of time...